Breaking the Fog:My journey with depression and Massage Therapy

So I found it very difficult to be able to discuss openly my experience with depression, but I said what the heck and wanted to be transparent with you. My goal is to shed light on the everyday struggle I face as a 35 year old entrepreneur and how depression and anxiety has shaped me Into going into business for myself.

My journey has been a hell of a rollercoaster waking up and sometimes not even wanting to get out of bed and out my head most days. I do anyway, with being an entrepreneur learning how to push raw emotions to the side to show up in a field where your best version of you needs to show up constantly. One of the hardest things I ever have to do is place that smile on my face when I feel like I’m drowning inside. I remember actually earlier today I made a quote on my IG page about how I used massage as a way to show love to others more than I do for myself! That became one of the most powerful things I had ever wrote publicly but felt it more for myself.

Becoming a therapist was definitely not my first choice at all I honestly jumped in mainly because my 1st born was on his way and I wanted the money and freedom to be there to help raise him. Going into the program I had no experience in medical and felt like I was failing all my classes, feeling I wasn’t smart enough to get into it. After putting those thoughts to the side I realized dang I’m pretty good at this and really locked in more just to obtain my license. Learning how to heal the body and mind help start this amazing growth within me I had no idea I was able to tap into. Listening to my instructors about teaching about energy, love, and spirit along with anatomy and kinesiology helped with diving into my own self love journey.

What was so scary about it I didn’t know how much self worthlessness I had for myself and couldn’t even find the first piece to puzzle of figuring me out. I call it a blessing/curse. Really having to sit with myself more made me grow increasingly more depressed than what I was already feeling. My friends would call it “with pain comes growth”. I hated when they said that I felt like my feelings were not only being acknowledged but with my mind I needed more guidance than anything. Massage therapy brought my depression to the forefront and started this much necessary healing of focus, self isolation, and consistency.

Massage not only enlightened me but also tricked me into learning myself more. Yes tricked me, I know it sounds funny to hear but without massage I probably would have been further back in my life. Some of the greatest benefits to not only your body but mind showcases through this healing journey of mine. Learning how to be self aware of my mind and body helps with doing so.

Even though this journey has broke me in a lot of ways but realizing it broke the old version of me to build one of the most unstoppable versions of myself as an entrepreneur and as a father. I truly hope whatever you are going through you look within first and once your practice self care and self love you will find all the answers you need within you. Much love and prosperity everyone.